I'm still standing..........

I thank God for each and every day that I have with my children . I think about all of the obstacles we had to overcome these past few years but we are still here. My oldest , when he was five , was diagnosed as being mildly mentally challenged. I was told he probably would not be college material , well let me just say my son has been on the honor roll since the new school term. I actually got him into a school that was for children with behavior problems. I made this decision because I did not like the work they were giving him in other schools and this caused he to act out because he was not being challenged academically. He proves to me and to himself , that taking your time and studying can help you beat the odds when they are stack high against you. As for my middle son , just when I thought life was good , I found out he might have a cancerous tumor on his life kidney. I just wanted to die! This was just too much for me to deal with, not my son. Thank God ! I was a benign tumor and it was removed but the whole process , which took about four very very stressful months. Taking different tests , which caused my son and myself to stay a few weeks in the hospital , it was very sad to see so many children with cancer or other illnesses . I remember bargaining with God for my son to be okay! It is crazy how we all seem to do that ( bargaining) at some point or another , but I guess it work cause my son came through this with flying colors. Just when I thought the worst had past again , I found out that my youngest has Autism. Why does God think I am so strong but I guess I am up for the challenge. I could not imagine my life without my little one , he has a smile that can light up a room. Yes at times it can become frustrating because I watch him get frustrated when he knows what he wants to say but it doesn't come out that way . I feel for him but at the same time I am so proud of his little accomplishments. He just learned how to write and it just made me smile because this made him happy about his accomplishment. As a mother , you ask that your children are healthy and happy and God bless them with both , what more can I ask for! I'm still standing and I am definitely strong!

stressing over nothing

Okay , two days ago I went to see the surgeon who did my lapband surgery. For the entire week , I have been stressing even thinking about canceling the appointment . I did not lose the amount of weight I was suppose too. I was texting my sister the entire time I was in his office waiting for him to come in and she was telling me I was acting like a complete maniac, okay , I was but that is not the point! I was so scared because I knew I didn't do my part and I just knew he was going to let me have it. So he comes in the office and he says , I see we had a set back , well we have to try harder and if that doesn't work we will have to try a different option. Then he said the words that made me feel so much better, he said " look kid , lapband doesn't cure obesity and many patients have set backs , your not alone "! Finally , I was feeling like I am the only person in the world to have a lapband surgery and not lose weight. I left the office laughing because I was so relieved that he did not chew me out. I guess I was stressing over nothing!

I'm sooooo stressed out

A year ago I had the lap band and I had started losing weight but then my body was rebelling and I started to gain the weight back. Even though I am not the size I was a year ago but i should have lost at least 40 to 50 pounds. So I go to my medical doctor and she tells me that my cysts is causing me not to lose weight , finally I get answers to why I am still a fat person , lol. Now I how do I tell my specialist , that this is the reason I'm am still fat, lol.

oatmeal is better than no meal!!!!!!

I was talking to someone today , who is unemployed and they told me that they would not take a job if it was paying minimum wage. So I said you are completely crazy, you rather have 0 check for the week as suppose to having a check for $ 300. What is wrong with these people , they don't want to try hard but they expect to start at the top. I was always told you have to work hard at what you want in life. For example , I am a home health aide and it really does not pay well at all but for now I can pay my rent and avoid being in a shelter with my family. Even though I live from check to check but I know life has something better in store for me. This is why going to school is so important that I pass so I can get a better job to take care of my kids and I can look back and say I did it myself and no one did it for me. That is the best feeling in the world and no one can take that from me!

brain freeze

Just when I thought I had figured out kaplan's website , they got us with the blogging. It seems so easy when you are on facebook or twitter . I completely got brain freeze on this one , even though it wasn't so bad setting up the account but now I have to voice my opinions , I know the Gods are laughing at me because I choose to voice my opinions all day long , lol, and now I am forced to , how about that!